This fall has brought a new season for me. My children are now all in school, our home remodeling venture is nearly complete, and I am no longer managing our family business. With this, I should be exhaling a sigh of relief. Sadly, not so much. I have been fretting, not relaxing.
With anxiety I have been asking 'What SHOULD I do with my days?" not excitedly wondering, "What WILL I do with my days?' Not "Thank you, Lord, for blessing me with this time," but "Oh no, I am wasting my time!"
About two weeks ago, when I had had about all of myself I could take, I began asking God to show me my purpose. I began to wait on Him to show me my "new job." Here are a few things He's sent my way.
#1 - Each week my husband has been choosing a family memory verse. Last week he just happened to select Romans 12:1,2
Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God-this is your true and reasonable service. Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will
#2 - Someone recently, and out of the blue, brought to my attention the Westminster Catechism which states,
Man's chief end is to glory God, and enjoy Him forever
#3 - Oswald Chambers got in on the action with this being his morning reading.
When we are born again we are brought into the realization of God's great purpose for the human race, namely, that He created us for Himself. This realization is the most joyful on earth, and we must learn to rely on this tremendous creative purpose of God.
From all of this I am working to grasp that only my scenery has changed; my employment hasn't. I am His, that's my job. That's who I am, my chief end. If I still want to be concerned with what I am doing, then let my questions be these: Do I live a life that is holy and pleasing to God? Am I kind? Am I truthful? Am I honest in all my dealings? Is my tongue used to heal and not harm? Do I seek peace? Do I flee from sin?
No matter my earthly title, no matter your rank or position, He calls us to holy living. He demands it and the blood of Jesus fulfills it. It's our reasonable service, a requirement for those in His employ; a requirement for the mom, for the guy in the cubicle, for the business owner, for the unemployed, for the student, for the decided visionary and for the questioning wanderer. It's Equal Opportunity Employment.
In short, the job description reads, BE HOLY BECAUSE I AM HOLY. The where and when are secondary details.
So, do I want the job? Do you?
Before you answer I just want to remind you, the pay and benefits are out of this world!